Saturday, October 24, 2009

如果

有可以浪掷的东西,
也有很想珍惜的人,
有追寻,
也有坠落,
醉一场,
也清醒地看过人间色相,
人生才不是空中鸟迹,
飞过不留痕,
到了离去的那一天....

Friday, October 23, 2009

单翼天使

传说,在爱情的世界里,每个人都是单翼天使,如果找到了自己的另一半,就可以互相拥抱着,用一对完整的翅膀,在爱情的天空里飞翔。 曾经以为付出就会有回报,付出才知道,在她的心里我始终不是最重要,无可奈何花落去,似曾相识燕归来。曾经年少轻狂的我不知道什么是珍贵,直到有一天,我 回忆过去,才知道眼泪的味道是咸的……第一次她在你面前流眼泪,肩膀轻轻的抖动,纯真的脸庞和长长的睫毛上沾满了晶莹的泪水,幽怨的眼睛看着你。你觉得这 是一幅异常动人的画面。你突然有点激动有点兴奋,内心中更是隐约的充斥某种莫名的快感。因为这是她第一次在你面前失去自我,这是她第一次为你流眼泪。短暂 的快感后你感觉到心痛,这个女孩子的眼泪好像流到了你的心里让你不可抑制的酸楚。此刻,她在你眼里成了世界上最无助的女孩,就像一只受伤的小兽需要你安 慰。
你顿时慌了手脚。你摸出面纸,毛手毛脚的擦去她的眼泪,把纸巾放在她鼻子上温柔的哄她擤鼻涕,然后搂她入怀,不许任何东西伤害到她,可是她还是哭,于是泪水流进你的胸膛。
第二次她在你面前流眼泪,眼泪大滴大滴的落下。她不动手去擦它们,就孤独的站在那里。你悄悄的从侧面看她,她就像背负了一世的伤痛,泪水清冽的淌下。你的 心因之震颤。你揽住她瘦弱的身体,在她耳边轻轻的说乖不哭。她把脸贴在你的脸上,于是你的脸上沾上她的泪水。你偷偷伸出舌头舔了一下唇角,有她的眼泪,是 咸的……
  第三次她在你面前流眼泪,你暗自思忖女人的眼泪果然多,这个女孩的承受能力好差。你无语的递上纸巾,看她自己把脸上的泪水擦干净,然后低头说对不起。 她红着眼睛哽咽的回答没事。你平静的对上她的眼睛,注视她。你的心平静如水……她依旧在你面前哭泣,你不晓得她究竟在想什么,你以为没有伤害到她,你不明 白她的疼痛。她打电话的时候会哭,坐在车里会哭,在饭馆吃饭也会哭。她哭的次数越多你越无动于衷。你不说一句话,平静的等待她哭完。后来你的脑子里出现一 个念头,她的眼泪不代表疼痛……你只看到她在你面前流眼泪,你可知道在无人的地方,在家里的床上……她孤独的为你流眼泪,她坐在地板上,她用被子蒙住脸。 她不会把泪水流进心里,因为心只会滴血……你可知道她无数次的告诫自己最后一次为你流眼泪,可知道无数个哭泣的夜晚过后她用冷水洗脸把冰块放在红肿的眼皮 上,别人问她眼睛为什么肿了她的回答是睡觉前喝了太多的水……  她曾经哭着对你说不会有第二个男人拥有她的眼泪,你一笑置之。你以为是气话,你错了。无 论别的女人怎样,她,只能真正的痛彻的爱一个男人,她没有精力没有足够的泪水给生命中每一个陪伴她的男。
  如今她还是会哭泣,只是不会像从前那样放肆的流眼泪。因为她已经知道泪水在你的眼里是多么的廉价,她极力的控制自己,在心里反复的念着别哭。她是一个情绪化的女孩子。不懂得如何不让眼泪流出。
  她为你哭仅仅是因为爱你,她流眼泪是因为感觉疼痛。终于有一天,你不再拥有她。她离开你。你终于失去她。多少年过去,年少的情感伤痛卤莽轻狂都被你封 锁在记忆的最深处。当你躺在病榻上回忆过去……你不经意的再次打开尘封的记忆不期然的想起她,想起曾经陪伴她的岁月,想起她的笑靥和你拥抱过的柔软年轻的 身体,想起她笑着把一条领带戴在你的脖颈上。想起你们的欢笑和争执。终于你想到她泪眼婆娑的明眸,想起她的眼泪。你忽然发现那竟是她留给你的最清晰,最真 实的回忆……
有人说,每个女孩都曾是单翼的天使,为了寻找真爱而坠入人间。若是她们找到了真爱,就等于找到了另一只 女孩是可爱的,所以,奉劝男人们别再让爱你的女孩流泪……

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

l.l.a

如果有天发现你不再爱你另一半了,反应如何?
一段健康的感情是两个人的开心,两个人的谅解,包容,尊敬,而经营的,成天的猜测,估计及不信任只会让距离越来越远,最近感觉自己好像没什么需要恋爱,生活还是能过下去,也许是习惯了一个人,习惯了依靠自己,主见太多太过强烈

p/s:i am confused

Monday, October 19, 2009

think

After that incident,the gap really become very far.I really hope that everything can cure,but even so,there will always be a hole somewhere

Sunday, October 18, 2009

5a.m

sleepless.night.
I don't understand why sometimes i can be so strong headed.I need to change!
Went and check tickets out just now,wee~~ticket to kl is only rm29,xmas eve~~
excited

..

一样的脾气,一样的幼稚,总是改不了...


凌晨三点十五

Saturday, October 17, 2009

jia you

I.am.disappointed.with.you.
Stand up and buck up!

Sunday, October 11, 2009

..

Father in heaven,I need strength to face it,I really pray that I can forgive and forget about those past..

Friday

Last Friday,i understand that my 'wife' was having problem,since both of us are having problemssss,i decided not to spend the weekend alone,i visited her!After class on Friday,Chuo Yeh come and fetch me from college,Hui min and Siew Ling were already in the car,went and fetch Wai Yip in gurney,we continued to queensbay and watch a movie,i watch second time le,where's the ghost :(,but everybody haven watch,so i got to guai guai follow :'(
Actually i watch that i was really scared,some parts to me are quite geli,I only watch horror movie once in the cinema,and that time i felt safe,kali ini,sambil makan pop-corn sambil scream~~ROAR~~
Hui Min,chuo yeh,joyn

It was so long since me and Hui Min last talk.We talk till midnight still dun feel any sleepiness.Hui Min begin to tell me her problem,I listen patiently.Next day,we woke up really late,but it was good to be with my friends again.I felt happy after these weeks of fatigue and mentally exhausted.It was good to enjoy again.

wai yip and me
min me pcy

my 'wife and me,haha,she's so creative

i like this!

I stayed up late at huimin's house that nite,we walk to the bus stop and took banyak banyak banyak pic,haha,i really felt better after coming out v u guys,thanks friends! love you,waiting for next week's 3D,meatball!
Wu!!



Thursday, October 8, 2009

爱是恒久忍耐,又有恩慈。
爱是不嫉妒,不自夸,不张狂;
不做害羞的事,不求自己的益处,
不轻易发怒,不计算人的恶;
不喜欢不义,只喜欢真理。
爱是凡是包容、凡是相信、凡是盼望;
爱 是永不止息。
(提前13:4-8)
(1 Timothy 13:4-8)

Monday, October 5, 2009

=.=

Today was the first day i officially start work in the ward.Surgical 1.
one word t.i.r.e.d!

Saturday, October 3, 2009

...

It's 5a.m.
I still can't sleep,I am still thinking.
Tell me,what.is.the.solution.