One of my clinical experience

This week I'm working in morning shift,I received the report from the staff nurse from the night shift,my patient is in DIL-dead in list,uh-o.
I organize my care for her,it is not easy to take care of such heavy patient,with so many bedsores :(.
I look at her condition,it must be really painful for her.She is not able to move,quadriphlegia.Her mouth is already cracked and clot with blood clots,I cleaned her mouth v the glove and cotton,she was mad at me :(,sorry ah ma,but it is for ur own good.It is a big task when we want to turn her.I needed help from 3 others of my friend to lift her up.She couldn't eat,I can only feed her through the nasogastric tube.:(
She has got so many many many many medications to serve,I crush it and feed it through the tube.Her children came and see her many times a day.Everytime I look into her eyes,I can feel the sadness in her eyes,she knows her own condition very well.I felt nervous whenever i do a procedure for her,her skin is so fragile.
She's discharged as the doctor told her family members to be prepared.

Ah po,may God bless You and guide You in His own way,i will pray for you :)

爱了就算

觉得孤单
心绪摇晃
分分合合的情事难断
披着月光
没人做伴
我的笑我的泪
不敢多讲
爱的路上
谁不受伤
越多的渴望就越觉沧桑
顶着阳光
一路去闯
眼角泪光
你不去想
有些甜总是无人分享
有些苦你要自己去尝
有些寂寞也仿佛是永远不可能忘
最爱的人常不再身旁
人生本来它就是这样
也总要学着
爱了就算爱过就放
爱了就算没有负担
爱过就放别为难
就算受伤又怎样
有过一次痴狂
一生难忘

I can't tahan liao!

I feel like I'm going to burst.Arrrrrgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
Why is it so tough?w h y?Why i choose this course? i choose this college,why I choose him and make him part of my life?
I am so frustrated with myself,frustrated with my health,frustrated with my studies,frustrated with my job!Everything seems so tough now,after the junior joined us,there are even more pressure.(sorry ah,not to say bo welcome you all la)Tutors always say:You are in year two already next time how to lead the juniors?They will be working with you you know?Arrgh!
Serve more than 20 medication and you expect us to remember the dosage,indications,adverse reactions,purpose in a time *roll eyes*
It has been more than half a year,half a year girl,why are you still not letting go?Why?Lupakan dia sajalah stupiak,people dun even remember you anymore ah,stop being so selfish to yourself and others.
Everything seems to go down down down down to the hill,who is there to explain?Myself.
Performance is going down down down,who's there to explain?Myself :(
Pointer going down down down!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEW!
Why is psychology so tough?
Why is Obstetric Nursing so tough yet the babies are so cute?
Why is Gynaecology so tough?
Why is gastrointestinal system so gay?Why ah??
Why is the people around can smile so sweetly in front of me then talk soooooo many bad things behind?Faker!
Why are there more and more rules in this college?We ain't primary kids!
I need to push everything up up UP again, *self motivate*
kesiannya *:(*
go and date your book and stop thinking too much la...
*ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH*
*ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH*
I felt better,fuh~

Happy 19th to me!

This year's birthday was really an unforgettable one,thank you Lord for these wonderful people that help me to celebrate although the next day is our final paper for pengajian Malaysia,i'm so touch!
Had 3 cakes this year,and presents :) :),will update abt it soon